Seasons Greetings

’Merry Christmas to you all’.

The year has been a wild wind, one of my best years in terms of achievement starting with a lot of paces. Haven’t finished with the same gear but lessons learned. One of the years I’ve watched my self grow and see glimpses of what I could be in the future. It’s not gonna come easy and I know that but am ready to give my best. For now let me leave you to enjoy the Christmas meal. Am happy to spend this one with Mum and Dad. Merry Christmas to you all.

My Today

’Am going to follow their footsteps and become even a greater woman in the world and I believe that because it’s my dream.’

Today I was going to the airport and was late , but for once in a very long time I had a driver dropping me who cared about me . Usually I just drive and park by the airport or I get a taxi but today he even got to push two of my big suitcases to departure .

He was so calm , about the same height as me but slightly taller and very nice black hair. I don’t even remember when I last looked into someone’s eyes directly and didn’t wanna stop. To say the least, the best ride I’ve had with a person in “decades”. Closing this chapter, I never got to say goodbye to him when we reached the airport as was rushing in order not to miss my flight.

On board, I was sandwiched between two Chinese women . One of them extremely talented ohh God! She was using this photoshop app like I’ve never seen before. She made it all seem easy and reminded me of how I’ve struggled to learn using it 🙂 . I was staring at her secretly but non stop. Could today’s flight get any better? Away from her my eyes were loitering around uncontrollably to all other screens of passengers in-front of me. Then I realised how I haven’t focused for the last 7months . I have had things to deal with but with a very busy schedule and haven’t felt love that I deserve. I have Buried myself in my football and projects that I forgot myself.

I have missed home! Missed my parents and feels like I left home a decade ago . This holiday I have two events but am determined to rest my body and get mentally and emotionally fine. People talk about mental health but I thought I had got to that point where I was straining because I was missing the people I love. Now let me go home spend time with my pole dad and busy mother. Am going to follow their footsteps and become a greater woman in the world and I believe that because it’s my dream.

Learning to Speak

’The woman I’ve become is someone not afraid to speak up’

Tactics and technics are all I’ve studied this year. I like being the best at everything I do and what a year I’ve had so far. I have learnt that we all have plans but God puts a final stamp for all to happen. Growing up in Uganda I will say I wasn’t as bold as I am now. Moving to the UK has changed me so much and maybe more than a little for the better.

I have learnt to speak up and not to say nonsense but to use everything I have to create change and do the right thing. I have learnt to be bold and ask for what I want without fear. I have learnt to say No to the things I don’t deserve and I still wonder at times how I got to be this bold.

I keep imagining the things I could have had but lost because I was too scared to ask. Now days seems as though you can’t get anything from someone who is not a friend or who doesn’t know you so will say I have learnt to make a lot of friends. (It’s important to have as many friends and contacts as you can my fellow friends) It’s becoming a necessity or you will forever not be seen. Seems as tho the people walking the road to greatness are all in the same circle of friends. But that’s just my view. If you left out, get your own microphone and speak up. Use all the platforms you have to send your message to the world however much they see you as mad and irritating. Always try to find the right balance of everything you do so you don’t put people off but same time you give them enough.

Right now am into the real world and the thought of becoming something great is fascinating me more every day. The woman I’ve become is someone not afraid to speak up. I won’t lie at times am still scared of saying certain things just like one would have a conscience but am not the shy Ugandan girl anymore. I want to speak at the world stage and inspire so many young girls and boys out there in the world. Football changed my life and however much I have a love-hate relationship with it in terms of playing it, my love to use football to change lives has always been more than just love.

Today

’praying that the best in me will be seen and put to great use by the onlookers’

It’s my birthday today And just like all of us, you always feel like it’s a special day and you want to do the things you love, be with the people you love, have a good meal and I think that’s how it’s supposed to be. I mean am 26 now but I don’t know when I last celebrated a decent birthday!

Today it’s hit me more than other days I don’t wanna sound like a crying baby but I really miss being around people I love. It’s on days like these that you need something new and exciting to happen. I pray to be a strong woman in the world , for the sacrifices I have made already that have prevented me from having a perfect life right now I pray that the Lord will lead me through so I can be able to achieve one of my greatest dreams to give meaning, hope and be an inspiration to many young footballers to achieve their dreams

I don’t want today to end, wishing I can have one big surprise before the day ends but you know, am thinking too much. Let me continue to live and grow into an exemplary lady, praying that the best in me will be seen and put to great use by the onlookers. Thank you to all who have wished me a happy birthday so far.

Silent Stars

‘Everyone else was seeing random girls having a go at playing the game in a small setting but for me, I was seeing future stars in the making’

I can’t believe it’s been years since I had this dream to see numerous girls Inspired to play football, Of course, I’ve always told my story of how I started playing at eight years old. I didn’t have the opportunity to any quality coaching or a chance of playing in any competitive match at an early age. I didn’t even know anyone to look up to who had succeeded In the footballing world in my country Uganda. well, I guess they were there but I didn’t know of any at the time. It’s not like nowadays where young girls have a lot of role models to look up to for example the USA where the Women’s National Soccer team players like Alex Morgan, Carly Lloyd are home stars. Many other countries have role models in the Women’s game name in Australia Sam Kerr who the young girls are madly in love with, England Steph Houghton, few African players like Janine Van Wyk from South Africa and Nigeria’s Asisat Oshoala who has been consistent since breaking through and is a three-time African player of the year. These are stars well known around the world and their success is an inspiration to the young girls to show them that football is more than just a game and can change their lives.

A Subject extremely close to my heart, After having visited a lot of communities for a few years, I realised that there is a lot of desire for the game. These players are silent stars that no one had seen yet or even given the opportunity.

So I come up with the idea of a tournament for the girls to play for the first time and experience what the game is like. This has been the most rewarding experience not just for the players bpassions all who are involved. The Sseninde women’s development cup is the tournament we started to give a chance to the women to play football and express themselves. The feeling I had in my heart seeing the girls play in the First game of the tournament during the first edition I can’t explain it till today, I couldn’t believe that the dream had come to life.

The fact that a number of girls get opportunities from this tournament is rewarding for example, after the first Edition of the tournament, some girls got opportunities to education after being spotted by various institutions, schools and universities. Others were selected for the Uganda Woman Elite League. Our biggest testimony so far is Nalukenge Juliet who is currently playing on the Uganda Women’s National Football Team and participated in our first Edition of the tournament.

I look back now and I remember we had invited some dignitaries in the footballing community who never turned up for the first edition, they were probably thinking there’s no point taking time out to come and see young girls running with a ball. Everyone else was seeing random girls having a go at playing the game in a small setting but for me, I was seeing future stars in the making. Currently, we have hosted three Editions and the emotions I see in these girls is what keeps me wanting to do this year after year.

Doesn’t go without saying that this has been one of the biggest platforms for me to speak out to the girls through my actions and show them how football can change their lives. Is it not funny that I have failed to give a proper speech for three years in a row however much I have prepared? I have failed to express my words in a speech. Maybe this project means so much to me and I end up failing to communicate through words and a lot easier through my actions. I have seen teams who have come with players that had never even played a football game before but currently have developed so much. My aim is to see the number of girls playing football increasing and for them to know how special this game is.

we’ve seen girls who are stars participate In this tournament but no one had ever given them a chance to play, these are silent stars who are looking for opportunities, they have a passion for the for the Game but don’t know where to start. The tournament is not just about winning trophies alone. It’s about giving a chance to women with dreams but without opportunities and with that I mean the young referees, female photographers, volunteers and others around the game who want to be involved in one way or another.

It’s about empowering women to have a voice and to stand up for what’s right, to inspire others and to have the values of football in their heart. Not being able to officiate in a World Cup or to play in the top league of your country doesn’t mean you’re not good enough. We are the Silent Stars the world is yet to see. Living in today and fighting off all the challenges that are never-ending.

To the young girls who have participated in the tournament and those who haven’t got the opportunity yet to play but have endless passion, to the team of volunteers that have been with us from edition one up to now, you are my greatest stars of all time.

Redefining A Hospital

’sometimes we help others to hospitals yet we are the patients’

According to Google, a hospital is an institution providing medical and surgical treatment and nursing care for sick or injured people. when I was little I knew no such thing as google so I simply knew it as a place where sick people go to receive treatment. Have you ever gone into a hospital and looked at all the sick people laying down helplessly on these beds? You know sometimes I wonder what goes on in their minds because maybe they feel too much pain. Sometimes the doctors have failed to find what exactly is the problem so they’re just laying down for days, months maybe a year without hope, how sad!
I think hospitals can be a very lonely place. Imagine lying there alone, so many thoughts going through your mind while you look at the painted walls. Back home in Uganda, there is this big hospital, so many sick people report in and some of them don’t even have the money for treatment so they wait, imagine watching your loved one slowly by slowly going away when there’s nothing you can do because you don’t have the money to help them…
My kind of hospital is a little different, I think we’re all patients in various ways but stay brave, we stay away from hospitals and try to be our own doctors. A couple of days ago I injured my hamstring and decided to go obviously to see the doctor, I was given time off to rest and I stayed indoors every day for the whole duration with difficulty to walk for the first few days. I got better physically As the pain went down. I also used the time to reflect on myself and my life, the more I had more lonely thoughts I realised I was getting worse and worse! I thought to myself maybe I am more of a patient than I ever Imagined. All alone lying in bed day by day.. thoughts increasing in my head about my dreams, doubts, fears, insecurities, all the bad and little of the good And then the routine suddenly becomes of thoughts, sleep and tears! How being alone can make you think of a thousand things in a second than you can actually do an entire lifetime.
We are all patients whether your illness is loneliness, Insecurities, fears, heartbreak Joblessness, Addiction, Worry and so many other sicknesses we ignore day to day. These kinds of sicknesses cannot be healed in hospitals and yet they can kill us slowly, So I thought we should redefine a hospital. This is a place within our hearts where we find joy, peace and heal emotionally, where we can get help and have peace of mind. Your hospital could be speaking to someone, praying, joining study groups, counselling, being happy in your own skin(being confident ), letting go of people who are of bad influence in our lives and others. Sometimes we help others to the hospital yet we are the patients ourselves. In my interpretation, I conclude redefining Hospital as the place within your heart where you can find peace emotionally and physically.

Cover Girl

‘Be the cover girl of your own book’

At times in life we become too focused on achieving success and we forget to appreciate the little things that we have achieved

Sometimes we become so fixed on getting that exact something and forget that at times other options could be better

I have learnt that just because you’re not the covergirl on a magazine or the headline in a newspaper doesn’t mean you are not worth talking about . I also know that just because you haven’t played in a World Cup or the Olympics or even won any accolades doesn’t mean you not a legend in your own way.

At times we may think that we are trying and being persistent but maybe we are doing it the wrong way I think the best thing is to pray for God’s favour and that the timing will be right.

Sometimes I do imagine a world where all the bosses are women , so that all those women who have had to sacrifice their bodies to get to the top positions in this world didn’t have to do it. At times u gotta do what you gotta do I understand, these are just the facts and let’s not shy away from them , personally I call it rape even tho its different. The issue of equality is still a big problem and the best day will be when everyone will be willing to address the issue so that everyone in this world will be on board and understand why it’s important for women to have a sit at the table

I’ve also learned that let’s not let many things of this world stress us so much things , things like how many Facebook likes you’re going to get, how many Instagram likes you’re going to get, how many people are going to read your blog etc because The right people will always like the things you do weather they are on Facebook Instagram or Twitter so never worry about that

Lastly ,there are so many things that are going to worry us each day, like being jobless , family issues, debts, our dreams/ambitions and everything else . we have to avoid these things from getting to our minds because at times we don’t have the power to control them . What we can do is to Avoid thinking ahead of ourselves and to always trust the Lord , to take each day as it comes and take one step at a time

let’s learn to be happy in our own skin regardless of anything , we are beautiful, we are enough and just because no one tells you how beautiful you doesn’t mean you are not.

Be the cover girl of your own book .