Behind The Smile

‘I have learned to be unapologetic about the things I want to do’

The truth is , I never knew how much my life could change when I left my home country to move to the UK. It’s been years and honestly am very fine and happy. I admit I have changed and am convinced I’ve changed for the better. Sometimes I cant believe how bold I am when addressing people and also how I fight for the things I want / believe in. I opened this website to speak up my mind aloud and am sure theres a lot of mistakes but for once I allowed my self to be raw.

Everything I do is for a purpose and for the last few days I have learned to be unapologetic about the things I want to do . At times all the people who don’t want us to succeed put all the bad thoughts in our minds that send the message to our hearts like a chain of command that’s very effective. Have grown up now and truth is we all don’t have much time. My dreams are real in my heart and I don’t see a way out right now apart from fighting hard. As I told you I have enjoyed my journey so far since I left home but now my heart aches so bad. I left my friends and family and everyone I know and at quite a young age! Now the challenge I have is that I miss home, I miss my friends I miss having all the people I had around me.

With life we have to make sacrifices tho I feel at this point everything is hard. Most things feel like a love hate relationship. I think am a person of extremes where I love too much when I do and probably vice verser but please don’t quote me on that.

I really miss home! Even being here, there’s something wrong that I cant quit explain. I don’t wanna leave, the things I wanna do seem like very big Dreams so at times I feel am in this kind of bubble or dreamy world. The truth is I don’t really care because what is the point of life anyway if we don’t do the things we wanna do?

The truth is , the life we have won’t last forever. I have fallen in love with being home. I want to have all my friends again that I left. Its nothing to do with what am doing now but its just the way it is, its just what my heart wants and for me thats what matters now.

Behind this smile there’s a young lady who is fighting, working very hard to achieve a big dream, there’s this strong woman who misses family everyday but keeps going because it’s just how life is. There’s this beautiful lady who wants to go out for a drink with a friend who is probably busier than she is! A strong lady who has learned to keep a deaf ear when someone says she’s not good enough. Having learned how to deal with that, the maturity I have is victory I should be proud of.

Since this is my first blog of 2019, I wish you all a happy new year.

The Sseninde Foundation Women’s Football Workshop

The Sseninde Foundation Women’s Football Workshop

Somethings seem so small yet with a big impact. Others seem big , easy and irrelevant but make a lot of sense. I decided to be unapologetic and do what I love which is to see many young girls get equal opportunities to play football.

with this I’ve decided to run a Women’s Football Workshop and it’s my first time as well. A bit nervous but done this a number of times and my confidence has grown in the last 6-7years into something amazing that I hope my parents will be proud of as well

Here is a link to the programme and bios of all the speakers during the event that’s taking place on the January 10th 2019 at Mackinnon Suits.

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hope you don’t be too critical with me on the mistakes 🙂

Enjoy your Sunday

Seasons Greetings

’Merry Christmas to you all’.

The year has been a wild wind, one of my best years in terms of achievement starting with a lot of paces. Haven’t finished with the same gear but lessons learned. One of the years I’ve watched my self grow and see glimpses of what I could be in the future. It’s not gonna come easy and I know that but am ready to give my best. For now let me leave you to enjoy the Christmas meal. Am happy to spend this one with Mum and Dad. Merry Christmas to you all.

My Today

’Am going to follow their footsteps and become even a greater woman in the world and I believe that because it’s my dream.’

Today I was going to the airport and was late , but for once in a very long time I had a driver dropping me who cared about me . Usually I just drive and park by the airport or I get a taxi but today he even got to push two of my big suitcases to departure .

He was so calm , about the same height as me but slightly taller and very nice black hair. I don’t even remember when I last looked into someone’s eyes directly and didn’t wanna stop. To say the least, the best ride I’ve had with a person in “decades”. Closing this chapter, I never got to say goodbye to him when we reached the airport as was rushing in order not to miss my flight.

On board, I was sandwiched between two Chinese women . One of them extremely talented ohh God! She was using this photoshop app like I’ve never seen before. She made it all seem easy and reminded me of how I’ve struggled to learn using it 🙂 . I was staring at her secretly but non stop. Could today’s flight get any better? Away from her my eyes were loitering around uncontrollably to all other screens of passengers in-front of me. Then I realised how I haven’t focused for the last 7months . I have had things to deal with but with a very busy schedule and haven’t felt love that I deserve. I have Buried myself in my football and projects that I forgot myself.

I have missed home! Missed my parents and feels like I left home a decade ago . This holiday I have two events but am determined to rest my body and get mentally and emotionally fine. People talk about mental health but I thought I had got to that point where I was straining because I was missing the people I love. Now let me go home spend time with my pole dad and busy mother. Am going to follow their footsteps and become a greater woman in the world and I believe that because it’s my dream.

Learning to Speak

’The woman I’ve become is someone not afraid to speak up’

Tactics and technics are all I’ve studied this year. I like being the best at everything I do and what a year I’ve had so far. I have learnt that we all have plans but God puts a final stamp for all to happen. Growing up in Uganda I will say I wasn’t as bold as I am now. Moving to the UK has changed me so much and maybe more than a little for the better.

I have learnt to speak up and not to say nonsense but to use everything I have to create change and do the right thing. I have learnt to be bold and ask for what I want without fear. I have learnt to say No to the things I don’t deserve and I still wonder at times how I got to be this bold.

I keep imagining the things I could have had but lost because I was too scared to ask. Now days seems as though you can’t get anything from someone who is not a friend or who doesn’t know you so will say I have learnt to make a lot of friends. (It’s important to have as many friends and contacts as you can my fellow friends) It’s becoming a necessity or you will forever not be seen. Seems as tho the people walking the road to greatness are all in the same circle of friends. But that’s just my view. If you left out, get your own microphone and speak up. Use all the platforms you have to send your message to the world however much they see you as mad and irritating. Always try to find the right balance of everything you do so you don’t put people off but same time you give them enough.

Right now am into the real world and the thought of becoming something great is fascinating me more every day. The woman I’ve become is someone not afraid to speak up. I won’t lie at times am still scared of saying certain things just like one would have a conscience but am not the shy Ugandan girl anymore. I want to speak at the world stage and inspire so many young girls and boys out there in the world. Football changed my life and however much I have a love-hate relationship with it in terms of playing it, my love to use football to change lives has always been more than just love.

Today

’praying that the best in me will be seen and put to great use by the onlookers’

It’s my birthday today And just like all of us, you always feel like it’s a special day and you want to do the things you love, be with the people you love, have a good meal and I think that’s how it’s supposed to be. I mean am 26 now but I don’t know when I last celebrated a decent birthday!

Today it’s hit me more than other days I don’t wanna sound like a crying baby but I really miss being around people I love. It’s on days like these that you need something new and exciting to happen. I pray to be a strong woman in the world , for the sacrifices I have made already that have prevented me from having a perfect life right now I pray that the Lord will lead me through so I can be able to achieve one of my greatest dreams to give meaning, hope and be an inspiration to many young footballers to achieve their dreams

I don’t want today to end, wishing I can have one big surprise before the day ends but you know, am thinking too much. Let me continue to live and grow into an exemplary lady, praying that the best in me will be seen and put to great use by the onlookers. Thank you to all who have wished me a happy birthday so far.