“It’s easy to lose sight of your goals when there’s so much going on around you”
A few years ago, I made the biggest sacrifice of my life to embark on achieving my dreams. Maybe they were not as clear then as they are now. I always had fantasies when I was little and having a tattoo was one of them. Funny enough I hate needles but for this I managed to stand the pain. I have five:) (they r hidden or faint so it’s hard for someone to notice, not that being so dark skinned helps either) I admit I would have had more if I had the time and was extravagant.
Looking back at my life seven years ago and now, am thankful I have partly achieved most of my goals. If I was not to exist any more I think I would be satisfied more than a little. Everything I’ve got I’ve earned it. Even tho as humans we always want more. Now there bigger dreams to achieve and am still going.
Maturity has been a big part of my life and I’ve learned to stay calm and be strong in times of need, loneliness, pain, when things are not going my way and every feeling you can imagine that causes uncertainties.
Patience and hard work are my friends. Dear friends, never lose focus. It’s easy to lose sight of your goals when there’s so much going on around you but attack what life brings at you, attack it my friend and follow your heart always.
Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference. I’ve learned and accepted that we won’t have control over every situation in our lives, maybe we don’t get to make every decision. But every new day we get to decide our attitude because with the right attitude, who knows what you can achieve?
‘I have learned to be unapologetic about the things I want to do’
The truth is , I never knew how much my life could change when I left my home country to move to the UK. It’s been years and honestly am very fine and happy. I admit I have changed and am convinced I’ve changed for the better. Sometimes I cant believe how bold I am when addressing people and also how I fight for the things I want / believe in. I opened this website to speak up my mind aloud and am sure theres a lot of mistakes but for once I allowed my self to be raw.
Everything I do is for a purpose and for the last few days I have learned to be unapologetic about the things I want to do . At times all the people who don’t want us to succeed put all the bad thoughts in our minds that send the message to our hearts like a chain of command that’s very effective. Have grown up now and truth is we all don’t have much time. My dreams are real in my heart and I don’t see a way out right now apart from fighting hard. As I told you I have enjoyed my journey so far since I left home but now my heart aches so bad. I left my friends and family and everyone I know and at quite a young age! Now the challenge I have is that I miss home, I miss my friends I miss having all the people I had around me.
With life we have to make sacrifices tho I feel at this point everything is hard. Most things feel like a love hate relationship. I think am a person of extremes where I love too much when I do and probably vice verser but please don’t quote me on that.
I really miss home! Even being here, there’s something wrong that I cant quit explain. I don’t wanna leave, the things I wanna do seem like very big Dreams so at times I feel am in this kind of bubble or dreamy world. The truth is I don’t really care because what is the point of life anyway if we don’t do the things we wanna do?
The truth is , the life we have won’t last forever. I have fallen in love with being home. I want to have all my friends again that I left. Its nothing to do with what am doing now but its just the way it is, its just what my heart wants and for me thats what matters now.
Behind this smile there’s a young lady who is fighting, working very hard to achieve a big dream, there’s this strong woman who misses family everyday but keeps going because it’s just how life is. There’s this beautiful lady who wants to go out for a drink with a friend who is probably busier than she is! A strong lady who has learned to keep a deaf ear when someone says she’s not good enough. Having learned how to deal with that, the maturity I have is victory I should be proud of.
Since this is my first blog of 2019, I wish you all a happy new year.
Here is a link with the Workshop Program and Speakers short biography presentation-2-2-2.key
The Sseninde Foundation Women’s Football Workshop
Somethings seem so small yet with a big impact. Others seem big , easy and irrelevant but make a lot of sense. I decided to be unapologetic and do what I love which is to see many young girls get equal opportunities to play football.
with this I’ve decided to run a Women’s Football Workshop and it’s my first time as well. A bit nervous but done this a number of times and my confidence has grown in the last 6-7years into something amazing that I hope my parents will be proud of as well
Here is a link to the programme and bios of all the speakers during the event that’s taking place on the January 10th 2019 at Mackinnon Suits.
hope you don’t be too critical with me on the mistakes 🙂
Enjoy your Sunday
’Am going to follow their footsteps and become even a greater woman in the world and I believe that because it’s my dream.’
Today I was going to the airport and was late , but for once in a very long time I had a driver dropping me who cared about me . Usually I just drive and park by the airport or I get a taxi but today he even got to push two of my big suitcases to departure .
He was so calm , about the same height as me but slightly taller and very nice black hair. I don’t even remember when I last looked into someone’s eyes directly and didn’t wanna stop. To say the least, the best ride I’ve had with a person in “decades”. Closing this chapter, I never got to say goodbye to him when we reached the airport as was rushing in order not to miss my flight.
On board, I was sandwiched between two Chinese women . One of them extremely talented ohh God! She was using this photoshop app like I’ve never seen before. She made it all seem easy and reminded me of how I’ve struggled to learn using it 🙂 . I was staring at her secretly but non stop. Could today’s flight get any better? Away from her my eyes were loitering around uncontrollably to all other screens of passengers in-front of me. Then I realised how I haven’t focused for the last 7months . I have had things to deal with but with a very busy schedule and haven’t felt love that I deserve. I have Buried myself in my football and projects that I forgot myself.
I have missed home! Missed my parents and feels like I left home a decade ago . This holiday I have two events but am determined to rest my body and get mentally and emotionally fine. People talk about mental health but I thought I had got to that point where I was straining because I was missing the people I love. Now let me go home spend time with my pole dad and busy mother. Am going to follow their footsteps and become a greater woman in the world and I believe that because it’s my dream.
‘For the young girls and boys in my country, you are the reason I do what I do’
My life so far,
Wow I look back and this year is filled with mixed emotions.
Nothing has come easy and I have had to work incredibly hard, but the biggest challenge has been the sacrifices I have had to make. But with it all, I am thankful to the Lord for the love and guidance He has shown me ever since. Good things have always been too good to be true but now I say it’s the mindset. Everything that happens to us is in the mind. I thank the Good Lord for the opportunities that I have got so far and the time.
I recently got interviewed by Street football world in their Football4Good magazine where I featured on the cover to, you can read my interview on bit.ly/2rrg6ak
One of my American friends calls me a camera whore, well maybe sometimes it’s not to bad to share your story to help inspire so many other people’s lives.
I am an open book, and this is because I love to see so many of my friends, young kids and young generation all over the world succeed beyond what I will ever do.
For the young girls and boys in my country, you are the reason I do what I do, because you push me to do more so that when you look at my journey you will believe in your dreams.