Where do I start? I mean I have taken so long without writing, only reason is because I wasn’t inspired. I write from the heart and so often I need inspiration to be authentic. I keep wondering, if I never get inspired will I never write? Is there anyone like me anyway?
The past few days have been kind of weird, let me also boldly use COVID19 as an excuse here instead of the real excuse because I mean that’s what everyone can get away with not so? You are fine one day and then the next you’re not! You have a friend today and tomorrow they are leaving you; you work had today and tomorrow you are failing! I mean you ask yourself where is God? (To my fellow strong Christian believers, don’t judge me when I say all this. As if u have never asked where the Lord is when u have gone through trials of your own!)
The journey to achieve anything seems endless, I believe the journey to success is infinity, and I say this because, do u ever feel like you are constantly working hard to achieve things? You achieve them and then you need to do more to achieve more and more and F more? I mean winners of gold medals in the Olympics and World Championships tell you the hardest thing isn’t to win gold, it’s to remain consistent and stay up there to defend your title.
Many retired athletes who performed at high levels at times struggle to remain relevant, and this isn’t athletes alone its every single one of us in our different fields. How many of you have achieved something and u thought thank God this time I’ve got it and then you realised you need to keep doing more and more and more? My God it’s so F tiring! I mean does any of you ever feel worn out? I know the only way is to keep going and yes, it’s the only option but when should we stop to get a break? When do we stop to get a break and not feel or appear as if we are feeling sorry for ourselves?
The journey to infinity is not for the weak, it’s for anyone willing to give everything, sacrifice everything and I mean everything. I am speechless because sometimes people get tired! Tired of being judged, of giving everything and feel like they are getting absolutely nothing, at times we even question if we have given enough? I feel weak writing this, because deep in my heart I wish for the journey to be filled with Love, unity, friendship, happy tears and filled with strength, maybe then even though the journey is to infinity, at least we are not alone on it, will the pain ever feel less?